My experience of deep inner change and reconciliation with my self

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I had an experience
which was a very important.

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I'd like to tell you
a bit about that.

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When I was a young man,

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I was very much eager to do
something for my country

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because I thought
my country needed to change.

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So I met some people and these
people told me that's good.

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You are you have
a sense of responsibility

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but have you thought
first to change yourself.

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And I said how could that happen.

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And they told me, well what we
suggest is that you look at your life

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at the light of four moral standards:

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absolute honesty, absolute purity,

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absolute unselfishness,
and absolute love

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and see where in your
life you've failed

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towards any of these standards

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and then try to put that right.

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Well for a certain reason,
I accepted this challenge.

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And in a time,
a short time of reflection,

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I thought of four things which
needed to be put right in my life:

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my relation with my father

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because I did not have
a love for my father.

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The second thing is
my relation with my brother.

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I was jealous of my brother
and because of that

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we became like animals though
we were living in the same house.

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The third thing was about
the book which I had stolen.

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And the fourth thing was
about betraying some friends

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and they're trying to cover
this betrayal by lying.

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So that was not easy.

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It was quite difficult to go to
my father and my brother etc.

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and admit what has happened.

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In all honesty and say I'm sorry
and please forgive me for that

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or I apologize for this.

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But when I did that

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something extraordinary happened.

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I felt a great freedom
and great liberation

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and in the same time
a sense of healing

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and a sense of reconciliation.
I was deeply reconciled with myself.

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And the other thing which was
maybe the most important thing,

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I felt that this change,
this healing,

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I felt came from someone else.

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It's not me who had produced that.

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And for me at that time,
God became a living reality.

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And since then God has become
something central in my life.