I still have doubt

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After I lost my brother,
I used to sleep and wake up

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feeling that I wish that
I have never existed.

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I spent sleepless nights
struggling between revenge,

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you know, and reconciliation.

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And I still by the way.

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Every day I faced that question:
"Am I in the right direction?"

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And this is what I discovered lately.

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As long as I'm able to
raise these questions,

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as long as I'm normal,

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because these questions
are part of the process,

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a process of change.

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Because when you go
to violence you don't question.

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You decide.

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I still have doubt,

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and big doubts

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of conflict and peace.

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And maybe this is strange to say,

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I have to tell you
that there is no,

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there is no 100 percent truth.

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There is no 100 percent peace.

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There is no 100 percent happiness.

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There is always part that you
will not feel okay with it.

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And that's peace.

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Peace is not, is not even to find

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the common thing between us.

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No.

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Peace is to be able to live
with the difference.

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Peace is to be able to still
respect others

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even if they have bad behaviors

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because every human being
deserves to be respected.

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So that's peace.

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But as victims you know
on both sides we believe

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everyone believe that peace
is like some kind of a paradise.

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It's that a paradise.

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Life is hard.

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So we have to be
aware of that.

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Yeah, that's why every day I say,

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whether I judge others,

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or I say to myself,
I'm not doing enough.

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I know.

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We need to do that with ourselves.